As much as it’s important to show your good side when things are going well, the scary side needs an appearance too.
It’s not often that I have work being done on my websites but recently I underwent some major website surgery.
There are some big Google updates coming up and I wanted to be prepared.
It’s far and away the most money I’ve ever put into my websites and to say that I’m nervous would be a complete lie.
I don’t get nervous. I absolutely freak out.
I always go straight to “if one thing goes wrong I’m screwed.
What if this changes my sites forever and my whole business goes under?”
I don’t even go anywhere in between or have a shred of calm. I just go straight to apocalypse.
And here’s the thing.
As long as I live if I’m doing something I deem as important as this, I will always feel this way.
I know this about myself.
The pain in the ass is that these updates are up to my developer and not me. So technically there’s zero I can do about it.
I mean literally zero.
Do you know how shitty that feels? I’m sure that you do.
So how do I cope with this? How do I deal with it? How do you accept things you can’t control?
Nothing. Seriously, nothing. I’ve been doing what I do for 15 years and the only cure for how I feel is experience.
It hurts a tiny bit less now, but it still hurts a ton.
I wish I had a better answer. I mean sure, taking a walk helps but ultimately until it’s over, nothing REALLY helps the anxiety go away.
What makes me feel better is the knowledge that these events don’t happen often so I know I can deal with them once in a while.
It’s like going to the doctor. It sucks to be there but hopefully if you’re in good health, it’s not too frequent.